It’s cuz I’m a girl.
Sunday, December 28th, 2008Girly stuff. I think.
I love the feeling of ohmygoddoeshelikemecuzilikehim rush feeling. Unfortunately, that high is always accompanied by the terror that he thinks you’re a complete fucking idiot. And ugly, too. But, willing to have sex, so that’s the only reason he’s willing to see you again.
It’s a total high, though, at the same time as it’s a total anxiety attack.
I do not actually believe that guys ever experience this emotion. I guess I hope that they do becuase that would make girls and guys not quite so different, but deep down inside I don’t believe it.
I’m giddy and at the same time ready to be a complete bitch so as not to have my feelings hurt when I find out he just wants to get laid.
On the other hand, the sex is, I have to admit, pretty fucking good. And even if HE was a complete idiot, which he’s not, he’s definitely hot. So, I should just enjoy that, no?