I admit it! I’m an exhibitionist!
Like that wasn’t already obvious from the way I like to WRITE about my experiences.
Having my photos on AFF, *especially* the one in my photo albums, is such a huge turn-on. I mean, the thought of having erotic photos of me looked at was always a major fantasy of mine, but sometimes the fantasy is really all there is. The reality either doesn’t match up in excitement, or is even unpleasant in real life.
My biggest turn-ons are mental. Not tangible. I get turned on thinking about telling people about what turns me on. I masturbate thinking about a guy *telling* me what he’s going to do… as opposed to thinking about having things done to me or doing things myself.
When I first posted my profile on AFF — the one I have now, but also, actually, the one I had right before the current one — I got some emails from guys telling me that reading it got them hard. A few told me they jerked off while reading it.
Wow. MY fantasies were charged for weeks with those thoughts! Thoughts of thoughts. And now thinking that there are people seeing, and hopefully becoming aroused by, my recent “x-rated” pictures… every time I think of it I get hot and bothered. (Very inconvenient since my hips have a tendency to start rocking involuntarily when I’m getting horny!)
I’m reeeeeealy tempted to post more of those in my profile so that more people can see them. (Ok, well more paying members anyway. I know you can’t see them full-sized if you’re not a paying member. Too bad, cheapskates. If I can pay, so can you! 
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So, my questions. Two. First, is that just a really bad idea? To post them? Is it just asking for trouble? Second, for those of you who both read my blog AND are in my network and have seen the pics I’m talking about, which one/s should I post for all to see if I do decide to do so?
LOL. Thinking about what some people *might* think about IF they see them… I’m already turned on by that! 
I’m so odd. But, you know, in a good way. At least I keep *myself* entertained! 
February 6th, 2007 at 9:08 pm
In some ways, exhibitionism is merely the desire to be wanted, which we all have. It can also be other things like wanting to flaunt societal norms, and there is probably a part of that in your exhibitionism, but probably most of it is the healthy desire for desire.
The intellectual turn on, the anticipation, the fantasy. Of course it is highly important and erotic and a turn-on. As a good librarian I’m sure you know that from Ode on a Grecian Urn!
If a guy was’t turned on to the point of being hard by either of your profiles he is dead, not just dead, but dead and cremated, and scattered. Or highly unimaginative.